Observing the World around me - Day 30

As I was thinking of the world and all that happens in it, I just realized that all is about CONTROL.

We tend to aim for control in all aspects of our life. Our family, money, assets,  nature, relationship with others, ourselves.

Why is that? Why do we have to control? 

There are two opposition to this - fear and power. POWER of control over others. FEAR of being controlled by others. 

We have many different tools to gain and maintain control. Emotion is on one end and physical force on the other end. In between there are reason, persuasion, blackmailing and so on.

Most of us are using a variety of these on a daily bases. 

I believe we are mostly not aware of that. 

Our biggest fear is to be controlled without any level of influence. 

On the other hand we fear also out of control situations, people or when we feel that we loose control over ourselves, it's like we are loosing the ground below our own feet.

My biggest realization so far is the issue of control. Our world is acting out of fear and power. 

What can someone do to be free completely? To let go of fear and power. 

How?

By facing all our fears and release the urge for control. To be one with ourselves. To get rid of the dualism of body and sole as a separate entity.  To get rid of the image that all decision is made by logic or emotion. To end the separation and trust ourselves enough to rely on both not either one or the other. 

16.09.2015 - I Am Worthy Of God’s Love - Day 24

Worthy of God's love 

Love is an endless feeling. There is no limitation of how much love exist in the Universe. We are light beings. Made out of energy. Love is a form of energy as well. As there is endless energy in the Universe, also love is endless.

The question what direction do we give to our thoughts and feelings. If we resonate on a high frequency, there is less and less place for low frequency energy, for negativity.

It's only up to us. 

There is no one living creature that doesn't deserve love or doesn't want to be loved.

The more love we give the more we get back. 

As the energy flows through us, we change it to anything we decide to turn it into.

Where do we get with negativity? Only to more negativity and low level energy.

It's a spiral that exponentially grows ether way up or down. It's not stagnating in the same place.

So the question if we decide to go up or down?

There is no meaning of the word worthiness. What does it mean? Someone decides who can and who can't be loved? Really? Are we loved for the actions we do in life or are we loved for who we are? 

Is there anyone that never did anything wrong? No. 

If I did something wrong do I got to be loved? Of course! Why? Because we learn from our mistakes. If we don't make mistakes, we will not be able to advance ourselves. 

If we don't know what is wrong, how do we know what is right?

So the question - am I worthy of LOVE? It's a definite YES. That's why we were created in the first place. To be loved from the first moment we've opened our eyes. 

So some has the opportunity to be loved from the first second of his/her life, some need to learn how to be loved. 

We all have a different lesson to learn in life. The choice is ours how we do that. If we give love - we will feel loved. 

15.09.2015 - I Am Loved, Surrounded And Supported By The Teachers Of God - Day 23

What's happening when you don't feel the connection with the teachers?

Today morning I was waiting for my guide to tell or show me something.

I could hear his voice but I wasn't sure that I didn't make it up.

So I've asked the guide to show me something that I will know he is real and he is really communicating with me 

He said, he didn't want to freak me out, because it ha happened before that he made connection with me. I was feeling his presence very clearly but I got so frightened that I have shut myself down. It took me a very long time to get over it.

Now I feel I am ready to make the connection out in the open.

The question if it can affect me negatively? Well, it might. I don't know , unless I try.

So for now, I am waiting to see.

If there will be any sign, I will update the log.

14.09.2015 - I Am Surrounded By The Teachers Of God - Day 22

Today's task is to find our teachers.

Each one of us is guided and protected by teachers that are next to us every time, all the time.

The question is how to be in contact with them? How can we find them? Talk to them?

Today in the first, morning silent sitting I was concentrated solely on finding and connecting with my guides.

I was waiting only for a little while. I could hear the sound of the voice of my guide. I asked him, how come I didn't hear him before, why I had the feeling that I am alone. He said, because consciously I have decided not to listen, not just of him but as a general idea. 

I don't like when someone is trying to tell me what to do. It doesn't mean I don't like other people opinion, the opposite. I love to hear what others have to say but to decide for myself. 

The reason I am not listening is, because most of the time, most of us, including myself, are giving instructions to each-other without realizing how disturbing it is.

So I guess at one point in my life I just shut my ears and I am not willing to listen unless I specifically ask someone's opinion.

The price I am paying is that I don't hear good. It's very interesting, there was a time in my life when I needed to lips read people, or I wouldn't hear what they say. 

It's like a defense mechanism that we are not aware of. At least I  wasn't.

I have missed out on so many things because of that. Just being aware of it helps me change my surrounding for the better.

Thank you! Great lesson has been learned today!

Today's music: Omlife - the spark by Mindvalley.com

13.09.2015 - Review - Day 21

Today is a review day of the last week learning. I have searched for the truth and have looked at objects to see more of reality than there is to see for the eye.

Today's morning meditation I have decided to go for the truth. To let the mind take me where it's want to take me.

I have been on a mountain age. On the tip of it there was a round building, open like a balcony. It reminded me little like the style of the elf buildings from the movie "The Lord of The Rings". In the middle of this round balcony there was a big round bowl made of light grey granite. 

I took a glass and filled it with the liquid that was inside the bowl. It was clear like water, but wasn't a regular water.

Than I started to walk along the cliff of the mountain. I was walking between the trees towards another balcony just like the one I have come beforehand.

Someone was waiting for me to show me something. It was a young worrier. He told me come and take a look, I want to show you your real purpose in life. 

I came closer to him. He told me to look at the horizon alongside the mountain and to see a bridge on the distance that has been surrounded  with clouds. 

He told me: "Your task is to take the souls from one side of the bridge to the other one. To walk right next to them. To show them the way and hold their hands. 

The left side of the mountain was the symbol of material 3D life and the right side is the after life, realm of the spirit.

I saw myself walking the bridge with others next to me, holding their hands all the way and negotiation for them on the other side. 

What and why exactly? I don't know. Yet.

12/09/2015 - I Will Not Let Doubt And Confusion Slow My Progress - Day 20

Today's practice is the same as the last one.

Twice today for fifteen minutes to glaze upon an object that doesn't have any particular meaning to me and to see what happens.

Today it was different than yesterday. 

I have seen the room becoming indifferent. 

The colors became less strong and I started to see yellowish-whitish lines around the objects. 

It's like an energy field that brakes the continuity by placing on the spot an object that has different energy radiation.

It's very interesting to see this. Although it's a little bit difficult not to blink and with each blinking the eye jumps back to it's default view.

Interesting to see how the brain puts the picture together in the back of the eye. Reality is not what we really see, it's what our brain tells us to see.

It's amazing me sometimes to go over a text that the letters in the words have been changed to something else and still be able to understand fully what is written. Maybe you have see this posts on Facebook or somewhere else. 

So how do we do that? I think it's an automatic correcting mechanism of the brain in order not to pick up every small thing that is not as usual. Simply to make our life more easier.

So if the brain corrects the reality, it basically feeds us with the preferred version of reality. This also means that sometimes we look at the truth just we can't see it. It's right in front of us.

music for today: http://play.omvana.com/sounds-of-nature/forest

11.09.2015 - Today I Wish To See - Day 19

Today in your two practice sessions, practice looking upon one simple mundane object. Do not take

your eyes off of that object, but look and practice looking very conscientiously. You are not trying to

see anything. You are simply looking with an open mind. When the mind is open, it experiences its

own depth, and it experiences the depth of what it is perceiving.

Choose one simple object that has very little meaning for you and gaze upon it twice today for at least

15 minutes. Allow your mind to become very still. Breathe deeply and regularly as you gaze upon this object. Allow your mind to settle down into itself.

When I start to look at an object for a long time, it seams to me that it is existing in two different place as my perspective from the eyes show me.

But went I point on a specific place on the object with two finger - what the left eye sees I point on this place with the left finger and what the right eye sees I point on this point with the right fingers, it again seams like two different point in two different places. 

But as I rearrange my vision to see with both eyes the same object, suddenly I realize I am pointing on the exact same place with both fingers.

So how this can be?

10.09.2015 - Today I Feel The Truth Arising Within Myself - Day 18

What is my true goal in life?

How do I know that what I see or get from my inner self is a true message , clear and deep from the higher existence?

How do I know that is not an implanted picture or feeling I have or something that I hope for?

Can I be persuaded by false hopes or directions?

I think yes. 

But what I think might help is to listen to the heart and check if it feels right without any overreaction.

True message should not over stimulate your excitement, it just should feel exactly fitting with all the circumstances. Like my true purpose in life. 

Like I said earlier in another note, it not need to give us the should, have to, must instruction. This can't come from the light within us.

True light never tells us exactly what to do. It guides us to understand things for our-self. It never makes choices instead of us. 

So in case all the above fit right into the picture, than there is a good chance you got to the true goal of your life.

Than what left is to execute what need to be done!

Good luck! Stay connected!

09.09.2015 - Today I Feel The Truth Arising Within Myself - Day 18

In stillness the truth  shows itself to me. What is stillness?

It's a state of mind when your thoughts are quiet you don't have any projection of action, simply just see the way you are.

You are the light made of  concentrated quantum energy. You are here to shine and lighten up others. You are here to show them how to find their ways to light and live the light.

Our light is concentrated in higher dimensions. It can't be accessed in the third dimension because it is not in the third dimension. What I mean basically - it exist in the third of course, like it is in  the second but can't be accessed, can't tap into it in the third dimension at first. 

Concentrated higher energy attracts higher energy in all the area of life in all the dimensions. 

Everyone has a light inside of her/him. The light is waiting to come out and show itself. The more you shine the more aligned you are with the universe and the cosmic energy.  

WE are made of pure energy. Everything that comes to us, we invited it to us previously. The universe mirrors our thoughts and feelings back to us.

What I feel and think is what I will become. If I want something I just need to find the way to connect to the universal energy flow and flow with it.

If everything is made out of energy, just like me, my body, my thoughts, my feelings than in order to get what I want, I need to focus the energy flow to that specific direction.

How to do that? I will tell you later on!

Shine bright like you have never shined before!

07.09.2015 - Beyond My Mind Is Knowledge - Day 16

08.09.2015 -Today I Want To Hear The Truth - Day 17

How do you know what you hear is the truth? How can you clear your mind from all the interference so you really can hear the guidance?

I started to meditate about a year ago quite regularly, almost every day. At first it was only feelings, colors. Eventually it became stories. It was the most exciting moments of each morning. After waking up, I would do some exercise and following the physical activity, I would sit for a 20 minutes meditation.

In the beginning I used listen to guided meditation where the vocal guidance would help how to relax and go to a deeper level of connection.

After a while the guided meditation started to interrupt the flow of my thoughts. So I have decided to go on with only ambient sound music and let my mind take me where-ever it should go.

Real fast I understood the difference between imagination and intuition. I felt when I wished for something or I just simply got an information I didn't really asked for.

So how can you develop your intuition or your gut's feeling to get the real answers for yourself? Only by clearing the heart, getting rid of old memories, surfacing it up to the open and starting to deal with them.

It's sounds easy, but it isn't. Sometimes fear or pain can hide the truth behind something else even to a level that we believe we know the right answer, only to realize you have just told yourself a very believable story. 

When you ask the right questions and you don't except the obvious answers you can actually get to the truth. Sometimes it takes to be open to receive outside help of a professional and I am not talking about a psychologist here. A well experienced teacher or mentor can give a perfect solution. 

When you manage to clear your head and hart from all unnecessary noises, you will get to the essence of yourself and hear your inner voice clearly.

Meditation keeps you relaxed, focused and connected. Once you start a regular practice of meditation, you won't give up anymore.

Keep going and never turn back! 

Free tracks at: http://www.omvana.com/

Enjoy!

06.09.2015 - I Shall Listen To My Experience Today - Day 15

What are my experiences I have in life that I can truly relate to and say these are real and not something I've just made up in my head.

How do I know that during meditation the pictures, messages or feeling I have is not the projection of my imagination but it is a message.

I think when I don't know what's going to happen and I don't wish for a specific outcome, than I am not in control of the thoughts. I need to know how to let it go. What I do usually is - when I feel that I am projection my thought's into the story, I just stop for a split of a second and telling myself, thank you for this thought, but this is not real message.

By stopping and clearing the mind allows me to get back on track and see the real truth.

The only experiences I know of as true self discovering are when
something comes from the guts. This called intuition. I feel that I know of something I didn't even think about before, but real messages don't make me excited. It doesn't concern my EGO. It doesn't elevate the level of excitement like a small child that is getting a new toy. I just simply except what I've received and it feels naturally true without any emotion being involved.

For example, I am thinking about a person and I simply know what's going on. How she feels, what she needs, how is her general health, is she happy, if she needs me, everything.

Try it out, it's amazing where this can take you. Much beyond your imagination, and that's how you know this is true.

My music for today:

05.09.2015 - Review- Day 14

Today's picture

Today's music

04.09.2015 - I Want To Be Separate To Be Unique - Day 13

What does it mean that I want to separate to be unique? For me it means that all our life we try to be different from each-other. We constantly trying to be better in something than others just to have a feeling of winning.

The real deep purpose of life does not require us to be better than others. I think it's more important to live in harmony. My responsibility in this life is to shine my inner light as strong as possible to win light over darkness. But this is not a competition. It's more feels like getting from adolescence state to an adult phase. 

When I learn to live with others in harmony, when I understand myself, I will be able to understand others as well. I reflect my thoughts on others all the time, just as I see the world through my eyes. I create my reality, I decide what I have or don't in this life. BUT if I dig deeper, that's also not entirely true. It's just like a curtain. Through it I filter reality and translate it to my mind and what I am capable to understand.

The real world out there is much much bigger than what we can imagine. We are tiny peaces in the big puzzle. As a picture of this puzzle builds out of each and every one of it's small components, this is how I am important as a little piece in this huge Universe. 

It's impossible to finish all the puzzle until everything is at it's place. But each piece is different from another one, else it would have few possible ways to build the same one picture.

So what it really means to be unique? It means for me to be  part of the bigger picture, but still hold my special ingredients that makes me the piece to fit into the exact perfect place. 

03.09.2015 - My Individuality Is To Express Life Itself - day 12

Vision of a new year mediation.

Closer of the previous year and message from myself in the future.

Need to concentrate on all six senses all the time in order for the picture to give me a feeling of fullness and wholeness.

02.09.2015 - I Am Not Apart From Life - day 11

01.09.2015 - What Is Knowledge? - day 10

What Is Knowledge?

Knowledge is giving us the ability to get answers for our questions by connecting with our inner selves. It's not something that is based on information we learn at school and memorize it. 

It's an ability. To know for certain who we are, what we need and how to get it. To read situations as they really are and not as they may seem. 

Knowledge gives us power, inner strength and balance. It's a perfect harmony of body, mind and soul.

It's cannot be learned, it's need to be experienced. 

So how we can reach true knowledge? By looking at ourselves with a healthy EGO, simply, purely and easily. By asking questions and not stopping until there are no more questions to be asked. And when we feel that we got to the button line, to ask one more time the same question and examine if there are more answers to that question. "What else?"

We, humans, are intend to see everything from one perspective, which is our own. Even if we look at a situation from different angles, we will always miss the consequences of the bigger picture. We examine everything from our own level, because that's the highest level we can see, but truly know is to connect with the source and ask the right questions from the point of humanity.

We can only become bigger then ourselves is we are looking upwards and not strait ahead, if we expand our horizon and not closing it.

This is not an easy thing to do, only a very few capable of it. Myself is also not there yet, but I am getting there.